due to my hand contusion, i've been exempted from my Mid-Year exams, totally. i decided to go to the doctor again as my left hand is getting worse. now, almost all of my knuckles are experiencing this one kind of pain. plus, my hands are turning red or purple or green or blue whatever colours lah. syukri has been teasing me for having a hulk's hand. my foot lah. lol. it IS really bad that even some of my friends won't dare to take a glance of my hand. jaja said that my hand looks like one of the dead people from sea. lol. it's quite true, actually. sometimes, i don't even know how bad my hand looks like cos i've been staring at it every day. i don't also know whether it's getting worse or it's just the same. but i can feel the exhilariting pain day by day. but i thought it was nothing. so i was quite surprised by my friends reaction seeing my ugly hand. lol.

for the past two days (yesterday & today), i've been forcing my hand to write five long essays in three hours. plus, the air-cons were just making it worse! i totally ignored the pain and tried as fast as i can to write cos i know that i've been writing quite slow. i usually would be able to finish it few minutes before time and also could asked for some extra papers. but ever since i had this hand contusion, i've been writing quite slow and i find myself rushing and losing my track on the time that i supposed to spent for each paper. i tend to finish one essay over my time limit. that results me in losing my facts and couldn't complete my sastera essay today. the pain keeps distracting me thus it drives me away from thinking about answers and such. although i got a green light to write my essays in point forms from Ustazah Sukarti yesterday, i didn't even let myself to do that. i don't know. it just doesn't satisfy me. i prefered writing like i used to. it makes me feel better. and, atleast i did show my hard work and tried my best despite the writing difficulties that i'm having.

some of my classmates are envious of me. *roll eyes* kahkahkah. everyone is wishing that they could escape from exams too. well, you can actually. just make yourself fall and hurt yourself really bad. you will surely be exempted from exams. lol. initially, i was one of them too who wishes that i could just escape from exams. but somehow, after getting that permission, i think i'm having some regrets. i now feel that i want to do my exams. i started to think about my marks and all. yes, i'm gonna be jealous seeing you guys getting your results next week where else i will only be getting my sastera & fiqh's results. only two out of nine papers. how can that be good and enjoying? i've been dreaming to get As. dreams won't come true this time. =.=

anyone feels like replacing me? ^^

so yeah, i won't be taking my mid year at all. however, it won't affect my final year results. so, i don't have to be overly worried. i don't have final year exams, i think. does prelims counted as final year? no, right? ahaa, i think so lah. but as Cikgu Dibah told me, it will affect nothing. she just wants my hand to heal faster. who doesn't? i hope it will be okay before the arrival of june. REALLY. A'Level H1 Malay paper, lah deyy. haiya ~

i'm thinking about what i should be doing for the whole week. =_= ayah said that i will surely spend my whole day in front of the screen with korean stuffs. LOL. he talks like i can't be bothered to eat and bath or whatever. haha. somehow, i will be doing that. but i can't stare the screen too long. i already have a poor eyesight. plus, i'm still learning to do things like typing with my right hand. so weird.

come on, i need a good luck charm. it's an annoyance to get stuck into bad lucks after one another, you see. i've been sick since 2009 comes. it's depressing to the core!

p/s : happy studying, classmates. GOOD LUCK. oh, blaja untuk aku sekali okaye! syg korg. *hugs*

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